If....

I think I've wasted 25 years of my life by not knowing you...

If

Only I could turn back time

Kadai-Mix

Bitter-Sweet-Sour....


Emotions
Dance like waves

Loneliness
Will miss me

Hate
Disappears

Anger
Melts-subdued-when I see you

Forget
Already forgotten

Remember
Touch

Forgiveness
Kiss me and I will pray for your soul

Jealousy
Your smile

Hear
Listen


Resent
Yesterday

Remember
Today

Reflections
Mirror

Sorrow
Will not visit me again

Failure
?

Strength
Hold me

Support
Shoulder

Fall
My hand beneath

Run
To me

Time
Still

Pause
Play

Life
Better than what it was yesterday :)

Stir
Well and serve

The Truth

The moment you work under someone you are underpaid!

:)

Yes this is the song I've decided to sing to my friend during her wedding :)...no..there is no stopping me

......ssh

......A silent post remembering India's 11/26..yes its not Mumbai's 26/11

Stolen

...words these are :)

" There’s a little truth behind every ‘just kidding’, a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering’, a little knowledge behind every ‘I don’t know’, a little emotion behind every ‘I don’t care’, and a little kick of lie behind the distant eyes of someone saying ‘I don’t love you' "

Awesome..isn't it??

Predisposed?

.....sometimes I just hope I had a different solution to my problem.

Trippppy?

Am I in your dreams or

Are you in mine?

Celestial

A gentle breeze moved those clouds

Stars were far and few

He still drew a picture

.....A stronger breeze would uncover our only satellite

Overshadowing and hiding the face he just drew

Money Mayweather is back

...and back in style. Dominated all 12 rounds. He is still the best pound to pound boxer of our era. Just love his defense and his laugh when he gets an occasional punch.His hands move like waves...fast very fast..and more often than not he gets his deadly upper cut. He did get a KO in R2 btw. A lot was expected from this match because in boxing when its defense vs counter punch its usually a bloody match. A little disappointed -it did not turn out to be that way. Floyd just dominated from R1, when you have a punch connect percentage (PCB) of 60 you are almost always a winner.


He is Back and let the betting begin. The wait is over.

Boxing according to be is the best individual sport there is....its all about you...mental...speed..strength..tactics....stamina...fear...crowd....its bad.

PS: Cant wait for the Manny Pacquiao vs Mayweather...if it happens that is.

I Quit

# of problems in Assignment- Just 1

# of hours spent on that 1 problem- Almost 8 hrs now

Result: Absolutely no progress

Reason: Don't know

Number of Attempts: Nearing 8 simulation and tries

Mood: Angry

Needs: A break, sleep

Conclusion: I don't like losing....I never fail.

Tomorrow: Is a NEW day :)

PS: The more we study the more stupid our thought flow gets...seriously!

I'm....

....falling

....dropping

....hiding

....holding :)

Echo

I wake up to a different voice these days :)

....Simple Truth

Its always easy to fall in love....its to fall out of love that is difficult!!

Liars

.....and they all said summer nights were shorter :)

:'( * 2

I miss playing on stage.....back to burning my fingers on my guitar :D:D

:'(

Manager: Nikesh I want you to interview a candidate for Failure Analysis team, he could be a part of our team as well, I will forward you his resume

Me: Sure, is the interview on Monday?

Manager: Sorry for the short notice Nikesh, a few have already interviewed him. Its today and your slot is from 12.30 to 1.30.Let me know if you need more time for his interview I will cut down his company tour...will be taking him to lunch now and dont be late for the interview.

Me:Wow?...

That gave me little over an hour to prepare. English Language and communication not being my strength (not to mention my thick S.Indian Accent) I decided to write down my questions.

I prepared all my questions (good luck googling it)!!! they were straight forward and I'm sure any engineer can answer most of these (and I hope a mechanical/civil/aerospace engineer answers all).

Click on the images to read


I'm not going to tell where this guy graduated from, reasons being I hope to get into that University someday or at least I will die trying :)


BUT

Devastated I was, after 90min :'(.....I just hate the way engineers are being taught these days...we are a bunch of morons who fail to understand basic concepts in ENGINEERING. I cant believe we all become engineers without understanding basic Math. We still struggle to do Math that was developed in the 16th and 17th century despite having fancy computers and gadgets.

The rest of the world can depend on Computers, Internet, Wikipedia, Wolfram and get smart (I call them Wiki-smart..all superficial-one page knowledge-bunch of dimwits)I depend on my Brain and it will never let me down...cos IT aint a server to CRASH.


PS: On a guilt trip right now...OK OK I use Woflram :D

Finally

India to Foreign Colleges: Set Up Campus Here

Stirred not Shaken

Thankyou for THIS.

Touched

Blessed and

Honored

:)

L.O.V.E

We all wait an eternity for these four letters to fall in order.

After watching a Hindi movie yesterday, we had a rather serious discussion on our way back home.

My friend asked me if I believed in SoulMates and I said yes. I told her that the girl/boy you land up spending the rest of your life with-will eventually be your soulmate. I might be totally wrong, but I think everything happens for a reason/s. Nothing is Coincidence-FATE is a human coined term, we just don't have the skill to understand, process and solve this grand cryptogram called LOVE (or in what I truly believe-Endless Love).

Each one of us will surely experience TRUE LOVE/ find our soulmate and when it happens you will understand exactly what I just scribbled and also feel the unexplained power of LOVE.


Just turn down those lights, close your eyes, block all those ringing voices in your head lay down give MY WORDS a deeper- a profound -a more rooted thought-things will fall in place-the chaotic pattern will restore order.


All this said I will conclude this post with John Nash's words (my otherside being a strong believer in Math :))

"I've made the most important discovery of my career... the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am... You are all my reasons."

Good Times

This is my all time Fav Duet...

Is DUET the right technical term?...huh I wonder

PS: Niki don't become a chick.....back to *Perry Mason*

DPS: Also dedicate this song to my best best Frnd who recently got engaged.

Bull Fight

Bullish markets (How can I be sure its really a bullish market and not a random surge...that calls for another post :p)....I like it..

But

What metrics should I care about before I invest

-Company's Quarterly earning compared to its previous quarter (For Ex 2nd quarter vs 1st quarter)
- Company's Quarterly earning compared to the same quarter last year (For Ex 2nd Quarter of 2008 vs 2nd Quarter of 2009)...this is expected to be lousy :p
-5Yr earnings
-10yr earnings
-S&P 500 only
-DOW
-100 day moving average
-200 day moving average
-Wait for the Golden Cross
-Diversity in the company (Ex I can think of GE-Energy-Finance-Consumer Appliances-Defence-Aerospace-Materials-etc )
-Products in the pipeline
-Company's Reputation (Dividends etc)
.....I can go on create more metrics for myself....but if someone knows the answer please share your inputs. Markets is not my strength!! I will never understand the true dynamics that drive the markets.

Fluid Dynamics is so much simpler (Wait a min....turbulent flows are as unpredictable as our markets..huh)

Markets all about Prediction and Anticipation

Heres My Anticipation based Prediction (Based on a truly nonlinear weighted fator equation and trendline extrapolation a.k.a Nikis Technique )

Dow will close this year close to 10,200 (+/- 200)
S&P will close this year close to 1100 (+/-50).....call me optimistic :)

Strength

Strength
......When you have a smile when your heart wants to cry
Strength
.......When you don't loose your hope even when it gets pitch black
Strength is
.......Finding a reason to stay when your heart has had enough
Strength is
.......Giving more when you feel like giving up

Lost

:)....Its OK to admit.... WE were seriously lost :)

?

Why.............no really........why?

Why

do extremely hot-extremely intelligent-smart-able-cute-witty girls from Stanford turn out to be gays. My heart is broken again :(

Wow :)

Tell me -you don't want to slow dance this song :)

Thankeeeeee---for reminding me this song...I owe you a coffee!

Hallelujah

I absolutely love love love SHREK

and this song in particular...love the timing of this song in the movie.

({)

Beautiful

(})

Coexist

I drown in empty space
My other side comes crashing down
And all the fast equations burn into the ground
A glimpse at the landscape leaves me paralyzed
Eventually surrender to Chaos
~Niki

Skip

~Pic Courtesy- Aparna

*Playing: Bap Kennedy : Moonlight Kiss*

I don't know how the moon appeared in other parts of the world, but here in Fort Collins it was just blissful-full-round-bright.

There is something special about Moonlit nights, I just love it- always makes my heart skip a beat.

YEAH

Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :p:)

..not another EXCERPT

I was dead and now I live
You took my hand

I blindly died
You took my hand

You watched me die
And found my life

You were my life
When I was dead

You are my life
And so I live

~Harold Pinter (Nobel Prize Winner for literature)

......no its not...its not just another excerpt.

Note to self: Add-To do list-watch Harold Pinter Theater Plays in Tampa

Damn!

Approximately a month (or may be two) back I was in NYC

He was very happy
I was lost
But He was there with me
He was there for me
He had a paper submission
But he sat down...
had a lot of beer..whispered words of wisdom till 4 in the night
He ended the conversation with LIFE HAS TO GO ON
........................................................
Today I'm happy...
He is lost....
But I'm not there...I'm a 1000 miles away from him
I have my job to keep and with two projects on my head and 10 hr work days almost everyday there is only that much I can do
All I did was talk over phone....repeat almost about every word he had told me...I ended our conversation with THE SHOW HAS TO GO ON
I think I let him down....I think I've let myself down :(
..........................................................
Sometimes I wonder if I really deserve such friends....friends you can blindly trust..friends who will be there no matter what the situation is...friends who pull you out of your misery in a min. I think I'm blessed to have such friends.
..........................................................
Hang in there bud, let me see if I can catch a flight to NYC this Friday.

Be Strong...be KF Strong! :)

~Niki

Peek-eh-boooo

A sneak peek into my new song....A WORLD WITHOUT TIME!


Watch this space for the whole song!

Your Input will be Useful :)

Disturbing

Disturbing would be a less effective word to describe what I saw today...yikes...and moments like these help you formulate and postulate grand theorems/rules/ and so I did----

'The length of the skirt should be proportional to the width of the thigh'

Ls=k*Wt; where k is Propotinality constant Ls is length of the womans skirt and Wt width of her thigh!!!

God Bless

Hell Fu***** YEAH

Come this Aug 25 the Temple Hoyne Buell Theater is going to run out of tap beer, finally MRP 32 will be in a concert together..it did take detailed planning (~5 min) as explained below...

Meetu- Niki DT in denver Aug 25
Me- I'm in
Meetu-The best part is the opening bands are Zappa plays Zappa and Pain of Salvation..blah blah...why are you not talking
Me-Loafer trying to get Dui on conference..
Me to Dui- Dui DT magne in Denver
Dui- They will be in LA but I rather see it with you guys..count me in..conference D2
D2-Dude its difficult but Ill make it man..its DT
Me-Dui ask Pappi if she wants to see Colorado
Dui-OK
Meetu- Niki you are the only one with a decent credit score and a decent balance..book our tickets
Me-Bastards
Dui-For all the money we spent to get your puke cleaned...
Me-OK tickets booked bays...book your tickets to Denver
---
The planning was so scary it was like our Goa trip planning...I just hope it does not turn out like one of our Goa trips-STONED

Yeah my biggest to do things will be striked off the list soon

TO DT!!!!!!

.....and we just drove

Seth: Let's go.
Maggie: Where?
Seth: Anywhere.
Maggie: What'll we do?
Seth: Anything.

~City of Angels

GOD....Spelt as Dr.K

My inspiration to learn more Applied MATH.

The awesomeness of Applied Math in Fluids can be captured in

Boundary-layer receptivity for a parabolic leading edge-The small-Strouhal-number limit

By P.W. HAMMERTONY AND E. J. KERSCHEN

Google this paper, worth every line if you are a fluids guy.

I miss his assignments and classes :(

Yawn

Train of events deciphered

After a tiring day I hit the bed early must have been 1130 or something

~2.00am Phone rings too lazy to get to the phone I ignore the call
~215am I can hear myself snore (not good)
~220 Phone rings again, now I'm curious--Answers the call its Jake a good friend I met in my class

Jake- Nikesh course grades are out
Me- Jake its fu!@$* 2am
Jake-Dude I'm pissed off, he gave me a B after all that effort
Me-I have just two beers in my refrigerator thats not going to help..will it
Jake-Check your grade
Me-Will do it tom
Jake-Why :o:o
Me-Well I just want to sleep and if I see a 'B' I wont sleep
Jake- What?? you are not concerned about your grade because you want to get 5 or more hours of sleep
Me-Errr-yeah
Jake-Let me know when you check your grade
Me-Dokie
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This also reminds me of another incident -a conversation I had with one of my very close friends when I was in RV

XX- Niki I'm tensed tomorrow is Internals
Me-Yeah I know
XX-Niki you are smiling, you just told me that you don't even have a textbook for tomorrows internals
Me-I'm just happy because internals means half a day I can go back home early watch a movie and sleep for more time
XX- I hate you
Me-Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
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I may not score a 100 and I know it, but where I beat you all is efficiency (eta=output/input)...ahhh Chaos and Integrability in NonLinear Dynamics here I come, uhhh this is a 700 level course should I be scared? I better be :)

Ballad

You asked me for a ballad, I give you a POWER BALLAD

Why we Fight

Why we Fight (not the Frank Capra one) is a must see documentary- (MIC) Military-Industrial Complex well explained.

Mirage

Sometimes a wish and an expectation can just turnout to be an illusion


A drop of tear ripples away the face I always see in a glass of water

Wandering clouds cover the face I always see on the moon

Opposing wind blocking that voice ever so present...everytime


---------------
Let that face disappear just like the way sand gets blown away by the wind

Wash away all those memories just like the way rain washed away my tears

Make me deaf to that voice just like the way a loud cry is lost in a raging sea

Skip away those feelings just like the way I skip a few notes on my guitar for a reason

Let all those moments in time be lost just like the way my thought flow is losing direction right now

'SU' kar mera man ko :)

Su was a darling this weekend..

Not to mention the Hot Dosas we had the day I landed in Boulder...yum

*HUGS*

YEAH....YEAH...YEAH

CONFIRMED-HELP is just 14 days away....YIPPPEEEEEEEE!!!!

Religulous!

-I worked a lot of comedy clubs in the '80s ...that still had disco ball on the ceiling...and in the'90s they became strip clubs and now they are Starbucks!

-Human history is just a litany of getting shit dead wrong

~Bill Maher

He is smart-arrogant-astute-pro CANNABIS-no beating round the bush SOB-he just reminds me of ME!


If you are an atheist you will enjoy Religulous

If you are a theist it will make you think.....if you are me you just dont care :)

Just Apt

--The unparalleled-the incomparable-the unsurpassed-the unprecedented-the unmatched--

THE BEATLES

In their own words...

LET IT BE

Fail

Bro sent me this...loved it

As I always tell my friends-

No matter how long the night is dawn will eventually set in!!

The Special two

Thank you both for being there for me ALWAYS.

I'm eternally indebted to you both.

The both of you are just too special to me and I will in no way let anyone hurt you both.

Rest assured I will always be there when you guys want me, and trust me when Niki offers help its BOUNDLESS and that's my promise.

OK OK like Du would want this post to end -Niki stop acting like a Vagi** :)

I fu**** absolutely hate exams...fu**** hate it.

Reaction

This reminded me of this...NICE

Awwwww

Trying to learn this song and it always reminds me of this incident

Su- Meetu I'm starving I'm hungry..lets eat

Meetu- Starts singing 'When we are hungry love will keep us alive'


As for me-Ireland-My Girl-My Guitar-Beach and-Love Will Keep Us Alive....I've got it figured out!!

With my Darling...Erica

Got my 3rd Ibanez, its a classical guitar this time. Feels awesome!!.

There's this rush-unexplained- when you pluck a nylon string.

Yeah!!!!!!!

Note to self: After Wed dedicate 1-2 hrs everyday on guitar..build your finger strength!!

Rose

There was a time when me and my friends would do anything to get his voice, he was our hero and we worked tirelessly to imitate him.

I still love this song.

We still try to be HIM!

So worth it...

If I had a gun and just three bullets----I would kill
-Glen Beck
--Sean Hannity
---Bill O' Reilly.....and in that order.

They are a complete disgrace to our race!!

Pity

I'm sitting in a GRAD class I'm just shocked to know that people have no clue about error functions, how can someone know about PDEs and not come across error function?

Shameful!!!!

:)

Pull me down hard

and

Drown me in LOVE

ManUtd

This post is dedicated to

Bram-Arsenal Supporter

Dui-Liverpool fanatic (I, for once agree they deserved a spot in the semis)

D2-Another Arsenal Victim

Aman-Chelsea Fan (and the only girl I know who follows football)

Michael- Bayern Munich lunatic

Sarf- ManU Fan (Sarf laugh with me )

READ LETTERS IN BOLD

MANU REACHED THEIR THIRD CONSECUTIVE SEMIS IN CHAMPIONS LEAGUE

Digest that suckers

Better Late than Never

Yesterday I realized that

......

.......you were not meant to be

.........you were just not meant to be....

Tomorrow

Whatever tomorrow brings

I'll be there

With open arms

Simile

Memories are like echoes...

Though sound and clear

You never know when it will hit you back

A query

We all commit mistakes

but

do we learn from them?

_ _ Love

Wrapped up my favorite month by watching two of my favorite movies

Geethanjali-1989

When in love even terminal illness is cured

Love Story-1970

Love means never having to say you're sorry

Dasvidaniya :)

Comfort and Solace usually come from unexpected quarters.

A must see movie.

Do svidania

Useless Fact # 8

Magic

Sitting in the lab yesterday getting bored doing simulations on ABAQUS I just had to do something exciting.

Well- this is what I deduced

If you throw a stone in vacuum it follows a parabola.

Its strange how math helps us to visualize 'weird' things, the way it represents a physical world problem depicts great success.

On the other hand I just realized for me to get excited all I need is a pen and some basic equations. I'm cheap :p

Sarah Burke

She is hot and she is a freestyle skier.

Yum!

I ask

My parents were here with me for almost two weeks. They will stay in Seattle for a few days and fly back to India.

One question begs answers

Is it worth it to stay away from your loved ones?

I always ask this question to myself but never did I find a satisfactory answer.

I will miss them truly.

Say hi to WILLY

Solitude

Your Car-A Drive-Pink Floyd-Black Sabbath-Led Zepplin-Intimidating Nature-Strange Sounds-Silence-A day of much needed SOLITUDE

Depraved

Man1- Biatch watsaaaaa??

Man2 (Well not that much of a man :)) - What you upto

Man1- Blah Blah...Dude you sound really busy-should I call you in a bit

Man2- Yes man, I'm cleaning porn on my hard disk

********************************************************************************

Question

Do we ever evolve? :)

Reminds me of

..me

Thug: What you lookin' at old man?
Walt Kowalski: Ever notice how you come across somebody once in a while you shouldn't have messed with? That's me.

-Gran Torino (2008)

A must see movie

Walk

Jews-Muslims-Christians-Hindus-More divisions-Global Warming-Sea Level Rising-Polar Bears Dying-Tree Cutting-Tiger Killing-Ivory-Elephants-Cheating-Liars-AIG-Lehman Brothers-Economic Meltdown-Greed-Wall Street-Recession-Pirates-Land Mafia-Police-Rapes-Doctors-Kidneys-Deaths-Drugs-Suicides-Aids-Cancer-Pakistan-Terrorist Activities-Money-Irresponsible Politicians-Children-Child Labor-Hunger-Begging-Crying-Earthquakes-Tsunamis-Hurricanes-Move-Change-Courage-WALK

Sometime walking a mile backwards seems never ending

I pray 2009 has more smiles :)